November 2, 2013
I am stuck in two worlds. In the first world I am my mother’s daughter. She is taking care of me, more wise and in charge. That is the old world. In the new world I am taking care of her, in charge but trying to act like she is. It is an incredibly difficult situation. To have my mother keep her dignity all while she needs to be taken care of. The hardest part is the fact that my mother thinks she is fine. Sure she has moments where she knows something isn’t right, but overall she feels she is an adult and should be treated like one. As I am stuck between two worlds, so is my mother.
After the ride my mother took with the stranger we (my brothers and I), have decided to have someone come to the house while I am work. Fortunately, I have a friend who is in between job assignments. Rachel is kind, (beyond nice), compassionate, a great listener and talker. She stops by most days for a couple of hours. She takes walks with my mother, does puzzles and occasionally take her out shopping. My mother is enjoying her time with Rachel. Unfortunately this is only a temporarily solution for my mother as Rachel’s job starts up again in a few months. I am happy to have Rachel, I am happy for my mom to have Rachel. With Rachel, my mother can choose whatever world she wants to be in.